Sunday, July 26, 2015

my attitude is gratitude

Hello Friends,

A little less then 3 months after I was diagnosed with cancer another neighborhood friend was diagnosed with stomach cancer.  She was 46 at the time. I remember going to visit her in the hospital as soon as I found out. I stopped by home goods to buy her a soft blanket because that was my favorite gift that I received while I was at Moffitt. She and I spoke about how unlucky and unfair it is to go through this when life seemed so perfect.  Tragically, Donna passed away on July 14th and her funeral was yesterday.   I was a little overwhelmed between the rain,  seeing so many of our mutual neighborhood friends that I don't see as often because of the move from the divorce and knowing that it could have just as easily have been me. I know that's a silly thing to even think but this is the second funeral I've attended in less than a year due to cancer taking a life too soon.   But, my attitude is gratitude.  I am beyond thankful for my life and getting this second chance.  My heart is humbled when I think about how lucky I am. We're all lucky in our own way and I acknowledge this blessing every day.  Tomorrow isn't guaranteed to any of us.  We are in charge of our own happiness.  We must choose to see the bright side, to live life despite the struggles thrown our way and to enjoy every single day.

Yesterday I celebrated two of my closest friend's wedding day. It was a magnificent celebration of their love and an absolute blast!    Their wedding day gave so much brightness and joy to my day and I feel so grateful to have been a part of their day.

Monday, July 6, 2015

slight change of plans

I missed a call from a (412) number this morning.  I immediately knew it was someone from Dr. Bartlett's office.  It's amazing that just seeing those 3 numbers makes my stomach drop.  The voicemail was from the scheduler informing me that my August 6th appointment needed to be rescheduled.  Insert a big eye roll here.  I completely understand things come up and schedules need to be changed but it's a super-big inconvenience when flights and hotels have been booked and days have been taken off work.  This not only effects me but my mom as well.  BUT....... it's just the way the cookie crumbles sometimes.  I was able to reschedule the scan and appointment with Dr. Bartlett for just one week later then originally scheduled. My mom was able to move her schedule around and she will now be joining me in Pittsburgh. I'm quite relieved I don't have to go by myself.  Plus, she's pretty awesome and fun to be around;)  Just 38 days until I can breathe a little easier.

I spent the holiday weekend with my babes.  We spent a good part of the weekend in the sun at the pool, beach or local parks and markets.  It was a beautiful weekend.