Wednesday, November 19, 2014

2 YEARS!!

Today is 2 years since my entire world changed.  If someone were to tell me two years and one day ago where I'd be today, I'd tell them they were crazy!  A double cancer diagnosis, 3 surgeries, a divorce, two moves, new job and a whole lot of other stuff thrown in the mix..... Yes, I'd tell them they were absolutely crazy.
But, the craziest part is despite all that craziness, I am so  incredibly happy.  I've learned more about life in the past two years then most people do in a lifetime..   I know how abundantly blessed I am to have my health, my family and my friends.   I know tomorrow isn't guaranteed to anyone so I live  BIG each day, I take nothing for granted and I have so much hope and optimism for tomorrow.
I'm writing this from my iPhone, in JFK airport on my way back from Diem's funeral.  I'm exhausted, mostly emotionally but physically too.   But today is a big day and I will celebrate.
Thank you for all of your prayers throughout the past two years.  My next scan is on December 2nd.  Please pray for clear scans and bloodwork.  I'm  nervous but believe everything will be normal.

Lots of love.

Friday, November 14, 2014

heartbreak

My heart was broken today.   There isn't a word in my vocabulary for the amount of sorrow I feel.  Losing a friend is never easy.  Losing a friend at such a young age is absoulutely absurd. But losing a friend to cancer is enough to make my heart break into a million pieces.  It hits so close to home.  I have been trying to live through the minutes of today without a major breakdown but the moment I was alone in my home I lost it.  Diem, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry you were robbed of a long life.  It's so unfair.  I just don't understand why this had to happen.   I am so thankful that I knew you.  That I was touched by your sweet soul.   The footprint you left on this world is deep and unforgetable.