Moffitt

I contacted Moffitt today, specifically Dr Hoduls office. I've been having this feeling or mild cramp at the bottom of my rib cage on the right. It's been going on for a while but I'm noticing it more frequently now. I've been toying around with who to call, as in what Dr. I went with Moffitt since there's little my medical oncologist can do and Dr Hodul did just operate on me 4 months and 5 days ago:) the sensation is hard to describe. It's not painful. Really, it feels like a cramp but its been in the exact same spot. After speaking with Melissa (Dr. hodul's PA) she doesn't think it's a blockage (either do I) she doesn't think it's a leak (thank goodness because that would be a bummer) it could be as simple as gas but she said the next step is probably scans (as in a CT scan) I did tell her I was heading up to meet with some mucinous specialist in a couple weeks and she felt that the scans could wait until then. I'm just so scared. What if its cancer? I think my liver, pancreas, and other important organs are right where the cramping is.  I really need those to be ok.
I'm in this constant battle with my mind. Part of me wants to curl in a ball and cry and spend my days eating ice cream(which I don't even eat anymore) and just feel sorry for myself BUT a big part of me what's to enjoy life!!!! I want to be carefree and be able to stop and smell the roses without a huge wasp (aka cancer) ruining my moments of happiness.
I'm praying these appointments on May 2nd and May 3rd provide me with clarity and more confidence.